Yes I am a bit emo lately. But hey, it is my moon time. I am in the most vulnerable state. I am overly sensitive to all energy that surrounds me. It’s either one extreme or the other, which is crying to ranting like some kind of spaz.
I know I get my head stuck in the past a lot, which is probably why I am sharing so much of it. I am making an attempt to let go of what I no longer want to hold onto; the past.
Being that it is 5:27am, I probably will not sleep today because I want to get stuff done. Things I’ve been to scared to do, due to fear of change. I’ve gotten too comfortable with the way things are.
So today I will face some responsibilities. Things don’t have to be this way. Trying to stretch $160 to last throughout a month. The only person that can make any changes in my life is me. Waiting for change to come to me isn’t going to happen. I must make the first move.
I got to stop being so scared of failure, and at least try. That way I can say I tried. And even if I do “fuck up”, look at it as a learning experience. You learn nothing if you’re too afraid to make mistakes.
I’m lecturing myself. To basically suck it up buttercup.
I’m not the same person I was in the past. A lot of changes have been made, and I’m not about to stop now. – Pooks