So I got to see my children yesterday, and I’m still filled with joy. Even though it was only for an hour. It’s an hour I cherish.
Yes, my visit was supervised. But it was like the worker wasn’t there at all. I just did what my children love from me the most, and that was play. We played tag on the climbers at a park. Anakin mentioned that when he plays with his dad, his dad is too fast. He likes playing with me because I’m slow. Haha! I run slow because I know Anakin likes that, he likes to feel untouchable.
They are just as I remember them. Outgoing Anakin, who is climbing, running, and laughing. And Dakota is still my little princess. She kept losing her shoe, and needing help to put it back on. Too cute.
Both of their birthdays have past, and I feel bad for not having anything to give besides my presence. They gave me gifts, Belated Mothers Day gifts which were adorable. Dakota had help filling in the blanks on this worksheet “All about my Mom”. Anakin made me crafts, a ring made out of felt with a flower on it. He also made me a little flower, that came with a note that couldn’t be more perfect coming from “Mommy’s little helper.”
The note behind the flower Anakin made said:
When your hands are full of flour
And your baking by the hour
See how handy I will be
When I hold your recipe!
And what from what Dakota gave me…
All about my Mom
How do I show my mom I love her? I hug her
My favorite thing to do with my Mom is exercise
Her favorite colour is pink
Her favorite food is chicken and rice
If she has extra time she likes to walk with me
When my Mom grows up, she wants to be a princess
My Mom laughs when I tickle her
My Mom is 40 years old!
What my Mom loves the most is a trophy
Trophy, coffee..close enough. Haha!
I apologize I have no pictures. I did not take any. I wanted to enjoy every little minute with them, so I did.
Dakota still gets this returning cough. Her chest rattles. She use to have a puffer for it. I blame myself for that returning cough. I know it could be worse. But still. My advice to any mothers to be, do not smoke.
Anakin told me his best-friend moved away. I can tell he misses him. I don’t think he’s made a friend quite like him. Although he has told me a little about his new friends. He said one cannot stop bobbing his head. I just looked at him in awe. I wanted to just say thank you for not being judgmental. He makes me so proud.
Anyway, we did as much as we could during that hour. Swinging, running, climbing, even got flat on the ground and crawled on our bellies.
My son had an accident, and thought I would not hug him. I told him not to worry about it, I’ll find a way, and I did. I felt like saying, he could be covered horse crap, and boogers or whatever, I’ll still hug him. I’m his mother. Anyway, even though he did get self- conscious I think I made him feel better.
As we parted ways, Anakin kept looking back from across the field. He missed and needed his mama. I know that. I will never say “What?! Are you stupid?” or call my boy an idiot. I will always try to mend those wounds.
Afterwards I went to the New School of Colour and worked more on my oil painting. I clowned around, walked around with a painted mustache on my face. Not a damn thing could bring me down. Yesterday was awesome. The weather was gorgeous. I am grateful to have been blessed with such an amazing day.
I got a text message this morning from a friend. “You are being prayed for! We are happy for you and God will restore what the locust has taken. Praise the Lord!”
I am also thankful for having such supportive, loving friends that are with me on this journey. – Pooks