I know it’s been awhile since I have taken the time to type out a blog post. Things seem to be all on hold, and I am just floating in space kinda ordeal.
I did have a visit arranged for last Friday with my children, but my daughter had gotten sick. So I’m pretty much waiting to hear from the worker so that we could book another time and day.
I have not heard back from Daya counseling yet, or Leads Employment services. I am waiting for appointments to begin with them sometime this month.
At the moment, I am currently waiting for paint to dry. I seem to be waiting for a lot of things. Whatever, I started sketching something out, then began to paint with acrylics. It was very spontaneous. It’s like; Medusa meets Eve all rolled into one. Correction; Kali meets Eve. If I finish it on time, I just might submit it into this years Ladys Fest. This year Ladys fest is fundraising for Safe Space. A program run out of East Village Arts Co-op for women on the streets, women that “work” the streets”, or women in crisis.
As for the oil painting I got going on at the New School of Colour. I am still trying to wrap my head around manipulating oil paints. It’s been a challenge, and more time consuming. That piece is more detailed than the one I got here at home. Although, I am getting assistance on it, thanks to Jeremy Jeresky ( the head facilitator and founder of New School of Colour) . He’ll show me a technique, I watch, then I try it on my own. I am visual learner. I got kind of a photographic memory, one of those peeps. Although, not the best memory, my limit is 3 things. One thing at a time. Too many things at once tends to overwhelm me.
So no finished projects as of yet.
Besides that, I hang out with my friends creating video’s for YouTube. Ducky and I take turns recording, editing, and posting these videos to YouTube and FaceBook I go by the name Pooks ( as I do with my art), and my friends are Melishee and Ducky. We basically get wired on caffeine, and record it. We call ourselves the Anti-Drug Crew, since no illegal substances had been used at all during our videos. Even though caffeine and nicotine can be considered drugs, but they are legal. Anyway, we mostly film from 2 locations; The Ark Aid Street Mission, or Tim Hortons. We are all on financial assistance, but that’s besides the point, it’s a good way to stay out of trouble ( besides the trouble we cause, which is pranks and putting our favorite people on the spot), and not only do we support Tim Hortons, we are proof that it is possible to have fun without alcohol or illegal drugs. What I like about it is that we have no shame making complete asses of ourselves, and we throw it out there. Something I noticed with society is a lot of people are so uptight, and so serious. It’s like they fear humility. So much to the point where people get offended by our craziness.
We had this one girl, desperately do whatever she could to put a stop to us. She thought what we did was plain out stupidity. She criticized our videos and yet made herself look like an idiot. That’s just my opinion. She was trying to say we were insulting the police by saying they got “big balls”, I told her that was more of a compliment. Which it is. Anyways, problem solved. She’s been banned. She tried to say what she was doing was constructive criticism. Nuh uh, as an artist, I know the difference between flat out criticism, and constructive criticism. If it was constructive, she would have given us something to work with. Did she do that? No, she was just bitter and bitchy. Doing whatever she could to insult us. A miserable person trying to drag us down to her level, because she does not like to see us so happy. Misery loves company. People try to destroy whatever is different. And yeah, we are definitely different. For example, I was wearing a bright yellow skirt, grey sneaker/ boots/heels, etc. I was dressed feminine. But then I painted a mustache on my face and walked around in public like that. The reactions I got were hilarious.
Besides that, the whole sleep routine got thrown out the window thanks to drinking a 2 Liter bottle of Coca-cola at night. I am now back to late nights, and waking up late in the afternoon.
I’ve missed church 2 weeks in a row, and I really do miss it. I look forward to all that positive energy in one place, but when I sleep in, I miss out. Therefore, disappointed. I do have my books. “Our daily bread”, “From Faith to Faith”, “Captivating” and “The Bible”. It’s not the same by myself though. Even Christianity has become a part of my rebellion in this world. Trying to understand what the world is trying to shut out. Out of schools and such. When I was younger there was always Christmas plays, now it’s being forbidden. Just like how the Christmas Tree was to be renamed. What is so voodoo about it?
I’m not a full on Christian. I’ll admit that. I still have a lot to learn. There are somethings I disagree with though. Such as the thing against gay people. I’m not against gay people, as long as they don’t stoop to pedophilia. They are capable of love just as anyone else, and they were created that way for a reason. Some people believe they were meant to be the opposite gender, whose to say they weren’t? Or maybe just to love the same gender. It is not my job to judge.
“Judge not, and ye shall not be judged: condemn not, and ye shall not be condemned. ” Luke 6:37
Another thing, when it comes to offering, we are to give 10% of our money to the church. What did people do before there was such thing as money? Things were traded. I am tempted to test this. What will happen if I offer my art? Ya know, Money’s value is imaginary. It feeds the greed in this world. People actually believe they are superior then others because they have a job, and look down on those who don’t. They get blinded by the system, and judge others “less fortunate”. So they think. Yet, I’ve seen these “less fortunate” people happier then those who possess and stress over this shit we call money. What does a man have when he has all the money in the world? Every object he ever desired in his possession? Definitely not what matters. I sure as hell don’t want my church to become one of those churches where it’s all about the money. All people are sinners, and we are vulnerable. Why would I want to part-take in risking, or tempting, other beings like myself by giving them something that can manifest into greed? I think even some churches get corrupted, not practicing what they preach. For example, the Pope, who gets all this fancy shit. Just saying.
“Indeed, it is easier for a camel to go through the eye of a needle than for a rich man to enter the kingdom of God.” Luke 18:25
Anyway, besides that, I’ve been watching this show lately called “Being Human.” I noticed that Kristen Hager is in it, which was just as shocking as it was when I saw her in AVP-R. I went to school with Kristen Hager at the Golden Learning Centre in Balmertown, and the Red Lake District High-school in Red Lake. No I wasn’t buddy-buddy with her, far from it. Matter of fact, her friend Megan hated my guts ( No idea why) so I kept my distance. Although I do recall Kristen showing a video in class back when she was in grade 7, I was in 8. I think her family made videos to help sell homes, realtors or something, anyways Kristen was in the videos at a very young age. She was always in school plays, dancing and acting. She’s always wanted to be an actress. So it’s just cool to see that she’s actually doing it. I respect that. Someone is putting Red Lake, Ontario on the map. Way to go Kristen.
Anyway, I’ll finish this blog off with a video I made a couple days ago. Me through the years, I was a freak back then, even though people tried to change me, ya can’t. I was, and will always be that misunderstood “freak”. Pooks, the Alien Goddess. It feels good to say that proudly. I’m not the only one, even John Lennon was a “freak”. People are scared of anything different, and fear causes people to be destructive.
“I’m not going to change the way I look, or the way I feel to conform to anything. I’ve always been a freak. So I’ve been a freak all my life, and I have to live with that, you know. I’m one of those people.” – John Lennon
Enjoy. – Pooks