In the Mirror

So my ex told my daughter my favorite song is “No One” by Alicia Keys. Haha! Yeah I used to like that song at one point in my life. When I thought sticking up for him and lying to CAS was worth it. But then he turned around and did the thing he said he would never do, and that’s take off with the kids. I went through a “2 against the world phase”, and yeah, he proved to me otherwise. He clearly doesn’t know me anymore. So he’s the last person to be asking about anything regarding me.

And let’s face it, while I was with him, we only listened to what my ex liked majority of the time. I was a metal head before I met him, and I lost that while I was with him. Sure there’s the odd song in other genres that may catch my attention, but I love metal. I’m not a big rap, and r&b fan to be honest.

And quite frankly, now that I’ve have had time to reflect about it all. I don’t think my ex ever really knew me, and vise- versa. He was trying to change me to his likings, and I was trying to change him. Just one big unhappy mess.

It’s been three years, and he still has it in his head that I will return. It is more than obvious we are incompatible. And the fact when I go to these visits with my kids, and they are saying things that make it obvious that their father is stalking me online. Such as reading my blog here after all these years. Yeah, that’s not concerning at all! Ahem, sarcasm. Move on, I am, obviously.

So I think this post will be kinda like setting the record straight. Allowing my readers to get to know me a little. Even though you may have some kind of idea, if you’re one of my dedicated followers. So maybe I’ll try to write about the little things about me, stuff like current songs I actually DO like and what not.

My favorite song is Mission by Puscifer. Thanks to my eldest brother for introducing me to Tool, and Maynard James Keenan many moons ago. I think Maynard has one of the best vocals out there.

Other vocalists I like are Corey Taylor ( of coarse, I am a proud maggot.) , Jonathan Davis, Jack White (Both Jonathan and Jack have very unique voices), and Marilyn Manson. I can’t forget Ivan Moody.

Speaking of Marilyn Manson, I’m pretty sure I’ve mentioned this before. But I see him as more than just a musician. He’s an artist. Heck, he made himself into a work of art, and I admire that. He doesn’t just create art, he is the art. I think that’s genius!

I have become quite the fan of Judas Priest and Iron Maiden over the last 3 years. I’ve also ventured into punk, horror punk ( such as Blitzkid), rock ( Tom Petty, The Rolling Stones, etc). As for those odd artists in other genres that catch my attention, wither it be the odd pop or R&B. Blondie, Gwen Stefani, Pink, Alicia Keys ( Her new stuff. Not “No One.” That song just gives me bad memories of a place and time I don’t ever want to be again.)

I absolutely love the Xenomorph. For those that don’t know, that would be the Alien from the Alien series, created by H.R Giger. I find myself pushing my own art to try to get viewers to experience what I do when I look at the Xenomorph. It is dark, scary even, but there is something beautiful and fascinating about it.

Obviously, I love art. I think it all began with counseling as a child. My counselor asked me to paint. I painted a house, a rainbow, and a sun in the top corner. Even though I didn’t follow instructions, I was supposed to paint how I was feeling. I was a very angry , confused little kid. But I remember the joy I got from painting the picture. It wasn’t much, but I was quite proud of it. I don’t think I ever forgot what my counselor wanted me to do. To use it to express myself. I think I carried that with me ever since. I may not have done it during the session, but I sure did start to do so on my own.

I also remember, as I got older, I had an obsession of drawing flying dragons. I still love dragons.

My favorite animal is the tiger, specifically the Siberian Tiger.

I’m a Detroit Red Wings fan. My favorite player is Pavel Datsyuk. That’s my ninja on ice!

I’m a huge Sons of Anarchy fan. Not only do I go gaga for Charlie Hunnam, who plays the role of Jax Teller. But I respect Kurt Sutter as a writer. He is full of surprises, and you can never be too sure what to expect.

A very close friend of mine got me into Murdoch Mysteries, and documentaries. Shows that make you think, or are educational.

I love watching cartoons and animations. I used to wish I could be a cartoon, because they can literally do anything. Plus, cartoons are so happy, and silly.

My favorite colour is blue. It’s such a calm, chill colour.

I love the moon. I like going for ridiculously long walks, with no specific direction. Just kind of, get up and go. Each walk has something special to see I find.

I never used to be a fan of reading, until I picked up The Jester by James Patterson. Which is my favorite book, and now I’m a happy little book worm, and own 3 books written by James Patterson.

I like to write, obviously. I have this blog, I write poetry….I used to write stories too. But haven’t since my dad threw 200 pages worth in the garbage cleaning out my room years ago. Yeah, that was pretty devastating. I should have cleaned my room when asked. Damn. Anyway, now that I’m back in school, I will have to learn a new way to write, not so personal and emotional. But more professional. We’ll see how that goes.

I sing and dance when I’m by myself, or when I think no one is watching.

I used to be able to do a really good Eric Cartman impression, but lost that ability over the years.

I am fascinated by other languages and cultures. I know some words in Ojibwe, French and Spanish. Bits and pieces here and there. I can say good night in 5 languages. If I could, I would learn them all. Although I have trouble when it comes to rolling my “R’s”.

I absolutely love coffee. That’s a given, to anyone that knows me. As well as potatoes. I do love my potatoes, Fried, baked, mashed, stewed ,doesn’t matter. Potatoes are good!

I can bend one of my fingers far back the other way. So yeah, I’m double jointed in one finger. Haha!

I support Idle No More, Occupy, and I’m anti-Harper.  I also support causes that spread awareness on Domestic Violence, and abuse.

I think oil should be banned, and money should be forgotten.

I like summer festivals and events here in London, Ontario.

I love the E.O.A/ O.E.V community. There really are some positive things within it if you seek the positive.

Scents I like are lavender or vanilla. I love Bodycology’s Brown Sugar and Vanilla Body Spray.

I love to dress up. I love costumes and masks. Halloween is my favorite holiday.

I love photography. I’m quite the shutter bug. But that’s a hobby on hold until I can get a new camera.

I love things that are surreal. Such as the crazy things I dream about, or scenes you can see in the movie “The Cell.” Stuff like that. Alice in Wonderland…I found that Floria Sigismondi did an excellent job capturing that kind of surrealism in her photography, even in her music videos.

I also have a fascination for androgyny. Probably because I got mistaken for a male so many times in my life time. Haha!

I’m 31, and I still get ID’ed at convenient stores. Even when I went up to Red Lake, and I went to the bar with my Aunt, the bartender thought I was underage. Haha! I got good genes. Thank you to my Mama, Elizabeth King, R.I.P.

Anyway, I’m getting tired. That’s enough for today. I’ll probably post again on Thanksgiving and write up all the things I’m thankful for. Now you know a little bit more about me. Hope you enjoyed. – Pooks

“To be yourself in a world that is constantly trying to make you something else is the greatest accomplishment.”
- Ralph Waldo Emerson


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