In Other News…

In other news…
I completed my painting for Up with Art. Thanks to Sylvia Langer for being so understanding and allowing me to submit my registration form and painting early. The submission deadline is just 2 days apart from my baby’s due date. So I am grateful that she came to my home and picked up the painting, and allowing me to email my registration form.

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She even came by with another surprise. I have been kinda cooped up indoors because my feet and ankles swell up, and I can’t squeeze my feet into my boots. I had shoes, but they were falling apart. So yeah, I was surprised by her kindness and generosity to help me out. While she picked up my painting, she gave me a pair of runners. I couldn’t slide them on at first, but after loosening the laces, I can actually get out and about again. FREEDOM!! J/k Haha!
So yeah, Pooks will once again be apart of the Up with Art exhibition/ fundraiser. Yaaaay!!

 

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I’ve also been told that children can get in free. So that means…my baby is covered, and so is my daughter if a visit lands on that particular Saturday. I think she will like the event if she does go. And since artists get to invite one guest, once again I will be bringing my man.

So now that I’m done my Up with Art painting, next I will be working on something for the Framing of the Phoenix Art Exhibition.

What else? Family will be happy to be aware that another ultrasound of the baby has been scheduled for next week. So maybe we will find out the sex of the baby after all. Even though that is not the reasoning behind the ultrasound. My doctor wants to double check on their measurement of the baby, as it seems to be getting kinda large.
However, my doula brought it to my attention that perhaps the reason why the baby could be big is because maybe I could be due sooner. That could be possible. Not all estimated due dates are 100% accurate.

I had a dream this morning, that my baby was already born, and it was a boy. It could be wrong. But yeah, got to love dreams while you’re pregnant. They seem so real.

I remember my doula asking if I notice anything different about this pregnancy compared to the other 2. Yep. I don’t recall my feet swelling as often late in the pregnancy. I get more indigestion with this one. And it seems like I’m constantly put on antibiotics for a bladder infection. But yeah. Considering how many times I’ve been put on antibiotics, I am hoping it hasn’t had any effect on my baby.

Wat else? Visits with my daughter have been going well. I was surprised she even cleaned her room. She’s been such a good girl. I know I haven’t been able to be that active lately. So I’m glad we can find other things to do, such as play board games. She always kicks my butt at monopoly, even the Junior version. Haha!

Congrats to a good friend of mine that has finally moved out of a building she’s been trying to get out of for the last 8 years. I haven’t been able to visit her new place yet, but hopefully soon I can. I know she will be busy with school starting this month. But yeah, will have to arrange a visit. It’s so weird going from having her just living on the other end of the bridge, to another end of the city. But in order to keep a good friendship maintained, an effort must be made.

I haven’t been to the New School of Colour for a week. As for today, there’s a snow storm warning in effect. So I probably won’t make it today either. Hopefully tomorrow. Even though I noticed that I get more done at home than I do at the New School of Colour lately. It seems like someone always wants to talk. Which kinda takes my focus away from my art.

Speaking of tomorrow, I have an appointment at the hospital. Some kind of assessment needs to be done because of my rheumatoid arthritis. It hasn’t given me any problems during labor before. So I don’t see why the staff keep bringing up the epidural. I refuse to take a huge ass needle in the spine. I can only see that making my arthritis worse in my back. So no,  arthritis or no arthritis. No epidural! I can normally tolerate the pain of my arthritis without any medication. So I guess you can say I have a high pain tolerance.

So yeah, things are going to get more busy this month, the closer I get to the baby’s due date. Even my regular check ups will now be every week, instead of every 2 weeks.
I think that’s pretty much it. 3 weeks and 4 days to go, and our baby will be here!!
Oh! My man started a new job last week, and he gets to use a company truck. I’m so proud of him. He had quite a few job offers. So yeah, it’s pretty awesome his hard work is getting some recognition.

Another thing. We might have to save up to visit his mother, and other family members in April. His grandfather will be there. And yeah, it would be awesome if we make it there with the baby. My man says I would love it there. His mother lives on a property surrounded by nature. So fingers crossed! Let’s hope we can make the trip! We may have to rent a vehicle.

Anyways, that’s enough blogging for one day. 2 posts should be enough. Lol Thanks for reading. Peace and Love – Pooks

“Of course I can do this. I’m pregnant, not brain-damaged. My condition doesn’t change my personality.”

– Christine Feehan

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Making up for my Absence

Long time no see!

I apologize for not blogging much lately. I think it’s been 2 weeks or so since the last time I blogged. But with Christmas rapidly approaching, we’ve been kinda busy. However, we think that my son and my daughter will have a good Christmas. Thanks to everyone that pitched in to help make this possible, wither it be through providing gifts, or money for gifts. You’re awesome! Miigwech!

Anyways, my last two Leads appointments went well. We started a module on confidence, and it turns out that my confidence isn’t as low as I had thought. It’s pretty good considering. However, pinpointing my insecurities, or admitting my insecurities was quite difficult. I got all teary eyed. But yeah, I had to state what goes through my mind, and what could have started those negative thoughts that belittle me and hold me back. It all goes back to my childhood, and the abusive foster mom. Fuck her!

I guess I need to talk about shit more until it no longer has any effect on me. But that’s the problem, as an introvert, I don’t talk about these things. In fact, I would rather try to forget. Even though that doesn’t really work, obviously. Ya know? I can move on with my life, but somewhere in the back of my mind these memories still exist, and haunt me when I am trying to move up in my life. So yeah, I need to speak about it verbally. That’s going to be a challenge. Talking about things and people I would rather pretend didn’t even exist.

Thankfully, I have my partner, and I know when I’m ready, he will listen.

But that’s enough of that. That’s some internal shit I need to work on that could in the end improve my confidence.

Umm… what else? Last week we made snow flakes out of paper at Leads. Just doing something fun and creative before the holidays. This wasn’t your ordinary fold and cut kind of snow flake. So thanks to my worker for teaching me something new. The one I made turned out pretty cool, and it is now hanging on my front door. So instead of your typical Christmas wreath, I have this cool looking snowflake! 🙂

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At the New School of Colour, I completed a painting that has that H.R Giger Xenomorph resemblance. Which is pretty cool since I was not copying from any images, it was straight out of my head/ memory, and it came pretty close. People can tell where the inspiration came from.

As for the background, I was trying to paint without the bristles of a paintbrush. So I’d use the other end. Or I would find other objects to use. Such as the cap to my Gatorade, or the lid to my Lays Chips container. So on and so forth. I’m pretty happy with how it turned out. I brought it home so that my partner can put a clear coat on it, since I can’t really do that on my own. Being pregnant and all. I have to be more careful around things that involve chemicals.

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Last week, my mind kinda went blank. So I was working on some zentangles just for the hell of it.

Which reminds me, the current facilitator said that he’d try to get my art work into the library. Kind of like a small solo exhibit. That’s cool. I mean, I’ve been with the New School of Colour since 2011, and still haven’t had a solo art exhibition yet. Maybe it’s about time.

Umm… Within these last 2 weeks I also submitted some of my photography into something called “Colouring London”. Similar to what I have participated in the past with my photography, “Colouring between the Lines”. It is run by the same person that did the “Colouring between the Lines” exhibition a year or two ago, Lincoln McCardle. The difference is, this time around, the photographs submitted that get converted into colouring pages will become part of a colouring book. That’s cool. The proceeds will go to a local charity.  There’s still time to get involved, so if you are a London, ON photographer, you can submit your work to the following FB page:

Colouring London

One of 4 photographs I submitted into Colouring London. All Rights Reserved. All Photos Property of Pauline King Shannon (Pooks) ©

One of four photographs that I submitted into Colouring London. All Rights Reserved. All Photos Property of Pauline King Shannon (Pooks) ©

This past weekend my daughter was teaching me some French that she’s been learning at school. So that’s pretty awesome. She knows more words than I do. According to her report card, she’s doing well in school.

However, when it comes to an education, my son is falling more and more behind. From my perspective, both the school and my ex are responsible. The school, because it’s like they don’t want my son around. So even though my ex has been bringing my son to school, the school just sends our son back home shortly after. I can understand why my ex would get fed up, and decide to pull our son out of school. That goes on long enough, it’s like, what’s the point of bringing him in, if the school is just going to send him back home anyways. However, the homeschooling hasn’t really started, and according to my daughter, my son just sleeps all day. And sometimes I think my ex is capable of teaching our son, other times… I worry. I mean, an education is not watching Infowars. He needs to learn to read and write, and do math, and learn other skills that would benefit his future. Perhaps even learning a trade if all else fails. Infowars, and conspiracy theories won’t do that. I mean, our son has got to learn to take care of himself one day, and at this rate, it’s not looking so good. He’s not motivated to learn anything. It seems like his only interest is videogames. So as his mother, I am concerned. How do you teach someone that doesn’t want to learn? Or maybe noone has found the way to teach him yet. I mean, educational institutions focus on one way of learning, and that is auditory. Not everyone learns that way. Some people, like myself, are more visual and kinaesthetic.

Anyways, that’s a little mind boggling. I mean, I only see my children on weekends, so there is only so much I can do. My time is limited. So my sons education basically lies in the hands of the primary caregiver, my ex. Hopefully he can figure something out. Our son doesn’t need to fall more behind than he already is.

Other than that, my visits with my children have been going well. they’re good children. Even though my partner feels as if my son is being a bit resistant towards him. That whole “You’re not my father” kinda thing. But my man can understand, and has been pretty patient. I mean, he too has grown up with step dads in his life. So yeah, he can understand my son in that regard more than my son realizes. Lol

Before I forget, I want to mention that over the weekend I finally did a Christmas window painting. I painted the Grinch on the front window of my house, and I guess it turned out pretty good. I mean, the neighbors across the street asked my partner where we bought it from. I guess they thought it was one of those peel and stick on things you put on your window. Haha! Nope! My man proudly answered and said that I painted it, and that he’s always amazed with the things I can paint.

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Umm.. what else? We’ve been preparing for our baby. Thank you to Angie Cooke from the Hamiltion Rd/ OEV Buy Nothing Group for giving us a crib.  And thank you to the kind lady that traveled all the way from Strathroy to give us a stroller. That takes care of two major pricey baby items we’ll be needing in the near future. The crib we got for free. As for the stroller, we probably paid only the quarter of the price of a brand new one. In the long run, that will help us out financially.

While I’m saying my thank you’s. I want to thank my good friend Melly for coming with me t o the Mall last week to do some Christmas shopping. It helps to go with someone that is familiar with the malls. 🙂

As for a baby update, my next doctor appointment is early January, and I believe my next ultrasound will be scheduled then. However I am happy to say that I can feel my baby kick more often. It’s kicks are getting stronger. So he or she must be growing. 🙂

Oh that reminds me, we did pick out names for our baby, even though we don’t know the sex yet.

For a girl: Lily Adelaide King Wuytenburg

For a boy: Adelaide Derek King Wuytenburg

We got the name Lily from my daughter. She actually suggested Lily tiger ( I think she meant Tiger Lily). But we thought the name Lily alone had a ring to it.

As for Adelaide, that is the name of the street that holds a lot of my partner and I’s relationship history. My man gave me his number to me twice on Adelaide Street. We’ve been for dates on Adelaide. We went grocery shopping on Adelaide. We both lived east of Adelaide. Our baby was even conceived on Adelaide. Lol The list goes on and on.

Derek, because that is my mans name. And my man has his fathers name for a middle name. so were kinda passing on the tradition so to speak.

King is my biological last name.

Wuytenburg is my mans last name.

So yaaay! We have a name. We actually picked those out months ago, but I just forgot to mention it here. Now you know.

Anyways, I think this is turning into quite the novel, so I shall end it here. Hard to believe Christmas is 2 days away already. But I am excited. It’s been awhile since I have celebrated Christmas with my son and daughter. I am looking forward to it. So I guess that leaves me with one more thank you. Thank you to my ex for allowing me to have our children over at my place for Christmas. It means a lot!

Oh, and thank you to the readers that actually take the time to read this whole blog post. Lol I know, it’s a long one. But then again, I’ve been M.I.A for 2 weeks. So yeah, a nice long blog post should make up for my absence. Hope you enjoyed the read. Peace and Love! – Pooks

Source: Power of Positivity

Source: Power of Positivity

 

Raspberry Sue

Hello. I’ve decided I’m going to type out part of my blog today, save it as a draft, and then add to it more later. I just want to write some things down before I forget.

So last weekend, I had my visit with my children on a Friday for 4 hours. I was late, but I felt that I needed to let the puppies out once more before leaving the house.

Anyways, we went to the dollar store, and picked up some flashlights, glow sticks, and my son wanted those silly glasses with the googly eyes. We wanted things that lit up since we planned to walk in the nearby conservation area, and with the sun going down, we needed some kind of light source.

It was a short walk, my daughter got spooked by the possibility of coyotes, and her brother started talking about ghosts and monsters. However, time kinda flew that day, because afterwards we planned on going to a park, and my alarm went off on the way there. I have an alarm that goes off at 7:30pm to notify us that it was time to head back to Tim Hortons (which is the pick up and drop off place that their father and I have arranged). So we went back to Tim Hortons, and still had about 20 minutes to kill. They wanted to try what I was drinking earlier that evening, a white hot chocolate, and I was like, sure, why not? Turns out that they became very wired from the white hot chocolates. They were behaving off the wall. So when my ex came to pick them up, he was trying to have a serious conversation with me, as usual, but I was having a hard time trying to not laugh at what my daughter and son were doing. Making faces, fart noises, pretending they were melting under the table, so on and so forth. Being children. It was funny. The kinda silliness that makes you want to join in. However, I didn’t want to be rude, and yeah, tried to listen to what their father was saying, despite the silly distractions. Lol So yeah, note to self: White Hot Chocolate makes your children go bonkers.

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After the visit, I returned home, and my man and his friend were having a fire out back. I think that was the night I got emotional regarding my mans drinking, I opened up and admitted a fear. Which isn’t easy for me to do. Ya know? I do worry about his drinking from time to time. And even though he has cut back, it’s the way he talks about alcohol that scares me. He sounds like an alcoholic. He needs to drink if he’s in pain, if he’s had  a rough day, to celebrate a good day, to chill with the guys. There’s a number of reasons/ excuses. And he knows that the reason I didn’t go out with him 3 years ago, it was because of his partying and drinking. Ya know? I’m past that phase, I don’t need to drink and party to have fun. I went years without drinking, it was when I started to date him that I thought, okay maybe I can loosen up a little bit. But now that I’m pregnant, and am going to be a full-time parent again, yeah, I’m going to be a bit of a  tight ass again. I don’t depend on alcohol. And when I hear him speak sometimes, it sounds like he does.

He tries to reassure me that he will straighten his act up when the baby arrives. But the thing is, I don’t want to go through the same b.s that I went through with my ex. Ya know? I don’t want to be stuck with another little boy that just wants to party, get drunk and high with his boys, while I’m at home trying my best to manage as a parent on my own. My man, says he knows what he’s capable of, as in when it comes to cutting back or quitting. But I still have my doubts. Compared to how much he used to drink, even his friends say he’s mellowed out. So I’ll temporarily sweep it under the rug, and yeah, only time will tell if he will straighten up and man up. Actions speak louder than words.

Yes I expressed some concerns I’ve had lately regarding my boyfriend and alcohol. But, I’m going to take his advice, hang in there a little longer, and have faith that he will show me I have nothing to fear. I do love him dearly, and I can only hope that I’m not going to go through the same shit as I have in the past.

Ya know? He says he’s always wanted a family of his own, to have a child. And with what’s he’s done so far, he seems pretty sincere. It could be just past experiences/ perspectives that could be haunting me. I worry and think too much. But then again, there are people that can’t give up a crazy lifestyle for the sake of their family. Please prove my fears wrong.

Source: Facebook

Source: Facebook

On Saturday, I went to Westmount for this event called Art Blast, which was being held at the For the Love of Art Centre. I would not have known about it, if it hadn’t been for Twitter. I find that Twitter seems to be a good way to find art events and exhibitions that I can participate in.

It was my first time at the For the Love of Art Centre. But yeah, I painted non-stop for 4 hours. The event is to support their centre. There will be an auction coming up, so all the pieces that were created there will be auctioned off starting Oct 31st, and the artists get 25% back of the proceeds that their art piece sells for. That’s cool. I get to support a non-profit organization that encourages art and creativity on the west end of London, AND I get my art out there. Yaaaay!! For more details regarding the auction, keep an eye on the following Facebook page: ForTheLoveofArtLondonOntario

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After the event, I met up with my man downtown and we did some shopping downtown.

Monday, I was home. Didn’t do too much. Tuesday, I have no idea what happened, just got some major pregnancy fatigue, and napped longer that day than I intended to. Probably means I need to eat more. But yeah,  I missed the New School of Colour this week. However, I was given the heads up that next week, the New School of colour will be on a Wednesday afternoon.

Today I was getting my appointments back in order and now that that’s taken care of, one less thing to stress about.

During the week, I have been supporting my friend Melly. If you haven’t noticed the re-blogs lately. I’m just so happy to see her standing up for something she believes in, despite the criticism she gets from people of higher supposed stature or status. Maybe I’m intrigued by her rebellion in a way. Ya know? People, even local news papers try to silence her opinions, but they don’t crush her persistence and determination. She has something to say regarding Homelessness and Poverty, and she’s damn well going to be heard. I love it! She even got interviewed on 106.9fm The X. I’m so freakin proud of her. It’s good to see her fight for something she believes in. Ya know? It’s like, my little Melly, she’s all grown up. She’s turning into quite the mighty woman. Get out of her freakin way!! Lol You can read and follow her blog at the following link:

Mel’s Life

According to my man, some family members on his side are getting a bit anxious to find out the sex of the baby. Unfortunately, I do not have that answer yet. We won’t know until early November, within the first 2 weeks, after the next ultrasound.

When we think about it, our home is never going to have a dull moment. 3 shitzus, 3 children (2 on weekends) . There’s always going to be something happening. Lol

My man and I joke around about naming our child; Raspberry Sue, no matter what the sex. Lol It gives us a good laugh. Raspberry, because my man has given my tummy so many raspberries during this pregnancy so far, that our child will probably think his/her name is raspberry. And Sue, because if our baby is a boy, my man says that name would toughen him up by the time he’s an adult. Imagine a grown man named Raspberry Sue, not one to mess with. Lol But no worries, that will not be the name of our Little Turkey Hunter, that name is just jokes. I think once we know the sex of the baby, we’ll get a better idea on what to name our child.

My man got the day off yesterday which was nice. He normally keeps himself pretty busy around the house, organizing things and cleaning. He was tuckered out by the end of the day. I find it funny how he says his dad is a workaholic, but so is he. However, I do have fun distracting him here and there.

Today I can relax, and do whatever.  Tomorrow, I go in to see my doctor for my third prenatal check-up, and that is when I can pick up a new form for my next ultrasound since the one I had had gone m.i.a. I do recall my ultrasound appointment being within the first two weeks of November. My man won’t be with me for this one, but I’ll shoot him a text as soon as I know the sex of the baby, and he can spread the news to his family.

Then Saturday and Sunday my children will be over, and I’m excited to take them out for Halloween. I finally decided what my costume is going to be, and I don’t have to buy anything except face paint. I just need jeans, and a plaid/ or button up shirt. I already have a hat I can use. But yeah, I’m going to be a scarecrow this year. A cute lil pregnant scarecrow. 🙂 Lol

Anyways, that is the basically what’s been going on in the life of Pooks. Over all it’s been good, with some worries, but not too much. Thank you so much for reading! Until next time! Peace and love – Pooks

“Your perspective on life comes from the cage you were held captive in.”- Shannon L. Alder

On Fire

So another week has past, and here I am again. Hi! 🙂 Lol

Anyways, I’ll begin with last weekend, which was AWESOME! I had my children over, and yeah, it was a good weekend. We also had a friend over to celebrate his birthday. His only request for his birthday was to have a fire in the backyard, and that’s what he got, along with hot dogs, and smores.

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My daughter, and my man, demolished an old dresser with a couple of sledge hammers. They looked like they had fun. I think my daughter enjoys helping out with whatever when she can. It will be great to see what those two create when it comes to the garden next summer. Yup, my backyard will be getting a make-over. It’s exciting!

My man and my son continued their match on Call of Duty Advanced, and yeah, my man got his ass kicked. Haha! I told ya, muh boy’s a gamer.

Oh! Another thing. My daughter mentioned that they ( my daughter, son, and their father) were struggling financially, and were a bit tight on food. Not in those words. But yeah, she let me know that they were struggling this month. But that is not the point I want to focus on, more of my man’s actions, and why he’s so freakin awesome! When it was time to take my children back home, before we left my place, my man packed up a bag to bring to my children’s  father. The bag included KD, canned food, and even some home-made chicken noodle soup he had made over the weekend. That’s just awesome!! Making sure muh babies are fed. Gotta love him. He really is a gentleman. ❤

Umm.. Monday, I didn’t really do too much. I think that was a social media guru day. Plus some organizing around the house.

As for Tuesday, the New School of Colour ran in the afternoon at 1:30pm due to renovations at the Ark Aid Street Mission. Congrats to them, they deserve a brand new spiffy kitchen for all they do for the community.

At the New School of Colour I completed the small acrylic painting I was working on, and that will be in the upcoming art exhibit called The Healing Palette in St.Thomas. Along with two older paintings of mine. So that’s pretty cool. There will be a variety of art from the members of the New School of Colour, so if you can make it out to that exhibition, check it out! It runs from October 23ird to November 7th at the Elgin Hospital in St. Thomas!

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Regarding The Healing Palette art exhibition. The lovely lady that is picking up the art pieces for the exhibition, I was told is a Pooks fan.  I was also told that because of this, I can submit whatever art piece I wanted, dark art or not. So that’s pretty cool. Thanks for being a fan. I appreciate it! 🙂

So the other 2 pieces I’ve submitted are oil paintings I’ve done in the past. One being my H.R Giger inspired, The Jester with the Oozing Eyes. Many people have claimed that they wanted to buy it, but never have. So now it’s up for grabs. And the other painting I submitted is a painting of tree people, which I currently named “Security”, because at that time while I was painting it, I was really trying to capture that feeling of security.

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As I’ve mentioned before, 10% of the proceeds off each painting either goes back to the New School of Colour, or the Ark Aid Street Mission. That is if they do sell. And if they do, I plan to put the rest of whatever my paintings make towards my man’s and I’s baby fund. With a baby on the way, we kinda want to prepare as much as possible, and this will be my way in pitching in, through my art.

Speaking of preparing for the baby. My mans sister offered to give us whatever she doesn’t use anymore when it comes to her son. Even though we don’t really know the sex of the baby yet. So that’s going to be a huge help. And my mans mother will be making baby blankets and whatnot. I am quite flabbergasted by the support, and I am grateful. Every bit helps. Funny how kindness can shed any form of resentment.

Yes, my mans mother and I got into a bit of a quarrel awhile back. But I can’t stay angry. She’s going to be our little turkey hunter’s grandma, better yet, a supportive grandma. Perhaps I’m not used to seeing family being that supportive. Heck, the one I was raised by belittled and abused me. I recall my supposed “mom” accusing me of using her when I needed help with my son when he was a baby. Hence why I tried my damnedest not to ask her for a freakin thing over the years. Ya know? She always had that tendency to twist shit around to make it appear like she’s a victim in one way or another. So of coarse I cut those ties with that family, and I have no regrets.  I’m just kinda left to my own devices to figure out what the heck a family really is. Sure I got in contact with my biological relatives. But I don’t have a really close bond with them, at least not yet. I try to keep in touch. The distance does make it difficult, considering most of my relatives are up north.

Anyways, when it comes to figuring out what a family is, I’m doing something right. My children adore me. Not bad for someone that has to figure it all out on their own.

Which reminds me, my son was asking for a facebook account. Thank goodness both my ex and I agree that a) he’s too young, and b) he needs to learn to read and write in order to use it. Anyways, if and when that time comes, hopefully my ex has the sense to make sure that THAT family is blocked from my sons account. They are not mine, or his family.

It’s bad enough that my supposed “mom’s” eldest sisters daughter tried to follow me on Twitter. Nuh uh… Damn rights I blocked her. Probably just snooping into my business to collect gossip for the haters in that family. No thanks!

Moving on…

On Wednesday, my man and I slept in, and he missed work that day. However, he made up for it, I think, by busting his ass off at home. Emptying boxes and organizing. This place is finally coming together and starting to feel like a home again. There’s less clutter from the move, and our home is becoming more functional. So yaaay!!

However, sometimes when it comes to organization, there comes disorientation. As in, things mysteriously disappear from all the cleaning and organizing that you have no idea where things have gone. Such as my form for my next ultrasound, and my appointment card for my next doctors appointment. AAAAAAH!!! So yeah, going to have to contact my doctor to get another copy of those, as I’m sure both appointments are coming up. It would be good to know when.

Other than that, today I’m blogging and reflecting. Oh!! I almost forgot to mention something regarding the New School of Colour. I may have possibly hooked up the New School of Colour with an upcoming Spring event. I noticed on Facebook that The Circle Women’s Collective was looking for artists, so I recommended the artists from the New School of Colour. They will probably be contacting The Ark, or one of the facilitators of the New School of Colour fairly soon. Yaaaay! I’m feeling both accomplished and proud. I did that! Little ole me! 🙂 Haha!

I should probably contact Leads as well, as my schedule went off skew since the whole sickness from the meds, followed by the nasty chest cold. Ya know? Get back on track with that. Even though I doubt anyone will hire a prego mama that is due in 5 months. Yeah, I’m kinda skeptical about that. Which is why I’m glad I have my art to fall back on if needs be.

I also need to start working on an art piece for the Twitter Art Exhibit.

Anyways, I see my children tomorrow for 4 hours. Yaaaay! However, I can’t be doing any running. Just waddling. Haha! Well, we always find something to do.

Other than that, looking forward to having another fire outback with my man this weekend. I did invite a friend, but she might have plans with her own man, which is understandable. With his hectic work schedule, they hardly get to spend much quality time together. So if that opportunity arises, I understand if she just wants one on one time with her man. Either way, my man and I are  having a fire, and hopefully the weather cooperates.

That is all I shall write today, hope you enjoyed! Peace and Love – Pooks

“What you allow, is what will continue.” – Unknown

I Always Return…

Hello again!

Thanksgiving has come and gone. My man and I had one friend each over, and my son and daughter were over for the weekend. The dinner turned out delicious. My man was a wonderful chef and did a great job. However, he made a lot of food, so yeah, we got lots of leftovers. Haha!

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Umm.. over the weekend my daughter and I did some pumpkin carving. Oh my god, I haven’t done that in years! Had some ancient memories of my own past of carving pumpkins, and I remembered a spoon helps scrap the rest of the inside of the pumpkin out. Funny how odd memories like that kick in out of the blue. Especially when you are doing something that you haven’t done in awhile. Anyways, it was fun. Both my daughter and I enjoyed the messy fun.

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It was a good long weekend. As I predicted in the previous post, my daughter was happy to see the puppies, especially Chewie whom she now calls her new best-friend.

My boyfriend and my son kinda had a match against each-other on the X-Box One, Call of Duty Advanced. Since we only have one controller, they took turns, and the one with the most kills wins. Well the funny thing is that they kept on getting a tie. So yeah, I’m sure that match between the two of them is to be continued… Lol

I know I said this before, but I am so grateful to have found a man that accepts my children as part of the package. Ya know? He makes an effort to get to know them, and bond. That means a lot to me.

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On Monday, my boyfriend had that day off, so he worked around the house, and we took a walk by the river with our 3 shitzus. It was a beautiful day for a walk, and the dogs loved it. They were tuckered right out when we returned home.

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In other news, I have returned to the New School of Colour sooner than expected. I don’t know, I got a text from a fellow artist giving me the heads up that it was going to be open yesterday evening. Apparently he had spoke to the Executive Director of the Ark Aid Street Mission regarding the program, and yeah, the reigns so to speak have been passed down onto him. So thank you Doug and Marshall for keeping the New School of Colour alive at The Ark. Both are firm believers that the program is both a positive and beneficial to the community. So yeah, I’m back, and will support the New School of Colour as long as I can. I imagine I will be taking some time away once my baby is born. Ya know? I will be pretty busy with a newborn. But as the baby gets older, I will probably return again, along with my baby. That kind of positive atmosphere, creativity, and sense of community could be beneficial to my baby. Besides, as I said numerous times, no matter how many times I try to stray away, I always return to The Ark and the New School of Colour. I love those people, they’re muh peeps! The staff, the volunteers, and fellow artists, and fellow peeps from the community,  Love ya. They all make it what it is.

Anyways, I brought a small canvas with me to the art session yesterday, it was a gift from my man, and I put it to good use. My projects normally take me forever to complete, but yesterday, since I haven’t painted in awhile, the creativity was just flowing. Even fellow artists noticed and pointed out that that was fast. It’s almost done.

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Anyways, for the New School of Colour fans, I shall let you know that we will be partaking in an upcoming art exhibition called The Healing Palette. We participated last year, and will again this year. 30 pieces will be submitted from the group, and keep in mind that 10% of the proceeds either goes back to The Ark Aid Street Mission, or the New School of Colour. So your support would be greatly appreciated.

The Healing Palette, 10th Annual Art Exhibition takes place on October 23ird – November 7th at the St.Thomas Elgin Genera Hospital – 198 Elm Street – St Thomas, ON. The opening gala is on October 23ird in the Atrium of the hospital. “The exhibit will showcase how, in expressing spirit, art gives hope and strength.” And speaking from my own personal experience, I know that is true.

Speaking of exhibitions, the call-out for artists for the next Twitter Art Exhibit has been made. That is for any amateur to professional artist that use Twitter. So far, I’ve participated twice, and it’s been exciting to have my art go to places such as Florida, and Norway. Coming up in the new year, New York City!! So stoked to be apart of that. My man already bought me materials so that I can create an art piece for this particular event. I love that he’s so supportive!

Anyways, if you are an artist that is on Twitter, you can participate. Keep an eye on the following web page for instructions on how to donate your art to the exhibit. The more the merrier! The Twitter Art Exhibit helps charities and non-profit organizations. The next exhibit, in 2016, all proceeds will benefit Foster Prides Homemade Program. Anyways, the link! Details on where to send your post card sized art, and how to participate will be revealed in late October!

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And speaking of late October, my children will be over for the weekend of Halloween!! Yaaaay! It’s been forever since I celebrated Halloween with them. Glad I get the chance to before they get to big for the trick or treating stuff. I think the last time I celebrated Halloween with them, was during the time I only had access through the C.A.S supervised access program. Back when C.A.S had a building on Dundas Street, which now is turning into S.O.A.H.A.C… back in 2012. Just found a youtube video of it….Man they grow fast!!

Newho, Halloween!! I’m not sure where the Trick or Treating hot spots are in this neighborhood yet. But we’ll see. It will be awesome regardless. I’m grateful that my visit lands on Halloween, and that my ex is okay with that.

Anyways, those are the major things that have happened, or that is happening lately. Hope you enjoyed the read! Until next time, peace & love! – Pooks

“Thank you’ is a wonderful phrase. Use it. It will add stature to your soul.”

– Marjorie Pay Hinckley

Balancing Act

I know it’s been awhile. So I will try to write as much as I can while my laundry is running, and before I leave the house again. I’m hardly here. I’ve been staying over at my boyfriends house, and his place is like my home away from home. Then I return to my home to either switch up clothes, or for my weekend visits with my children.

A lot has been going on. For instance, I had a friend over a week ago or so, to help me out with the New School of Colour website. That was fun. Feel free to check it out. More updates will be added, and artist profiles. No worries, there is more to come.

http://www.newschoolofcolour.com

Last weekend, and this past weekend, the exchanges regarding my visits have been directly between my ex and I. For some reason my ex is avoiding Merrymount. One day he’ll say that his cell was set at the wrong time, so they’d be extremely late. So it would be better to drop them off directly. Then last weekend he said he couldn’t afford Merrymount. Honestly I think he’s just making excuses based on his own paranoia. He says the staff there have been acting “strange” around him. Or looking at him weird.

So yeah, even though he calls Merrymount to cancel, and they forward that message to me. I still see my kids, since my ex drops the kids off directly. However, they normally don’t arrive to my house until 1 or 2pm. Our son gets the blame. Which is weird, because I have no issues getting the kids out of the house. When it’s time to go, it’s time to go.

Anyways, since they arrive so late, I get to drop the kids off at his place for 8pm to make up for it, rather than 5pm. But we’ve been late lately, since it’s going to take some time to re-adjust to timing the bus schedules on a different route. Rather than one bus, were taking two. Not to mention, buses suck on Sundays. I even planned it out last Sunday, but then a bus doesn’t show, and were standing around for an hour. So yeah, gonna try the other route next week, despite what the schedule says.

This past weekend my kids got to meet my boyfriend. The first thing my son asked me was “Is he nicer than dad?” Well of coarse he is, if he was a disrespectful ass like his dad, I wouldn’t be with him. My boyfriend makes me laugh. Not only that, I feel valued and appreciated by him. When I do dishes at his place, which I absolutely despise, he truly appreciates it. The first time I did it, and he got home from work, he said “You are fuckin awesome!!” He noticed right away. And I surprised him by cooking dinner yesterday, he said; “I’m lucky.” He was having a rough day at work, so I did what I could to make the remainder of his day run smoother.

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Anyways, this past weekend, my kids also got to meet my besties, and my boyfriend of course. We all met up at Nuit Blanche. I think it turned out awesome. Even though my kids were expecting rides and stuff when I said it was a “festival”. Nope, an “art” festival. 😛

My daughter still needs to get used to the idea of me having a boyfriend. She got a bit jealous. She says I’m HER treasure, and hers only. I think she will grow fond of my boyfriend, after spending more time with him and getting to know him. He can be pretty fun, adventurous, and spontaneous. He has his moments where he’s like a kid himself.

Anyways, I told my boyfriend how I treat my home as a vacation for my kids away from their fathers life style and neighborhood. So that stirred up some ideas, and he plans to take us for a hike, and teaching my kids how to fish. I think that’s an awesome idea! I mean, my kids might complain at first, like they usually do when I take for walks on the trails, but after awhile they do start to enjoy themselves.

So yeah, lately, just trying to balance things out. Between my kids, my new relationship, my friends, and my passion of art and writing. It’s still a bit rocky. But I’ll work it out.

Up with Art is this Saturday, that’s exciting. My man is coming with me. So yaaaay! He can see what I do as an artist. I love contributing to fundraisers that help those in need.

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As for my life as an artist and a writer, it’s not like I’m not doing anything. It’s not easy to build a name, it’s taken years. A lot of elbow grease, and I’m still working on it. Pooks will be great!

These last couple of days I’ve been battling a chest cold. I slept most of today away after drinking the cheaper version of Neo Citron. However, yesterday at my boyfriends, I was taking more natural remedies. Such as drinking White Tea, Organic Mate tea with cinnamon, I ate fruit, including orange peels. I ate raw mushrooms, and celery. Oh yeah, and drinking water with chopped garlic and ground pepper. The phlegm has been flying out since. It doesn’t want to stick around. Haha!

I’m still a bit stuffy, but getting better.

Oh yeah, I went to Leads last week, and turns out my worker is on an “indefinite leave.” Whatever that means. I hope she’s okay. I mean, I know she loved her job, so it would have to be something serious for her to leave. Anyways, I am back on a waiting list. All the workers are booked or filled with clients, so the clients my worker had are all on a waiting list until a worker is available.

Anyways, my laundry is almost done, and soon I gotta shower, re-pack my backpack and head out to see my babe again. I’ll write again, when I’m home again. There’s no internet access at my boyfriends place, so yeah. Got to squeeze it in during those brief periods of time while I’m home.

Until then, Thanks for reading! – Pooks

“How one walks through the world, the endless small adjustments of balance, is affected by the shifting weights of beautiful things.”

– Elaine Scarry

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I Look Forward

Just got back in, so I got a bit of time to sit down and type. Yaaaay!

Newho, last weekend my children and I celebrated my daughters birthday. I made her a vanilla birthday cake. She loved it. It was also the long weekend, so when we went to the park, we got to see fireworks going off in the neighborhood. It was cool. One kind teenager even gave my daughter a sparkler. So thanks to that kind young lady, my daughter loved it while it lasted.

Overall, it was a good weekend. It just ended kinda stressful. I just had to misplace my keys, and I noticed they were missing when it was time to take my children back to Merrymount. Anyways, as time went on with my search for the keys, by this time, I knew I wasn’t going to make it there on time. So I sent a message to Merrymount, saying something along the lines of forwarding a message to my ex to come to my house for the pick up. To make things more stressful, Merrymount could not arrange that and suggested that I either contact my ex, or someone we both know and trust to help out with the exchange. Well…obviously I don’t associate with my ex’s crowd and vise-versa. So yeah, I was in a bit of a pickle. I guess they were giving my ex a hard time on his end as well. Luckily for me, I was able to find his number and contact him directly. So yeah, now he has my number. But when he came to pick up our kids, he agreed, regarding keeping our communication to minimum.

My ex was saying we should just cut Merrymount out all together. I don’t know, he was concerned that they were going to call the police or something. Seriously? I just misplaced my keys, and threw it in the laundry. That happens sometimes. It’s not a crime.

But then again, another crazy suggestion from my ex was to go off radar. Well that would mean give up one of my passions. Writing this blog. He wants me to shut it down. Umm..no.

As an introvert, I need an outlet which is this blog, and my art. My writing, and my art, the things I create, that is the very essence of Pooks. Pooks is a creator, and a messenger. And whatever that message is, isn’t complete until I’m dead. Capiche?! I will leave my mark in this world, and my writing and my art is a part of that message.

Getting back on track, I did manage to find my keys though, 2 hours later after the time I was too drop my kids off at Merrymount. That being AFTER I tore the interior of my house apart, making a huge mess, then cleaning it all back up. Actually, I was going to give up, and decided to give the laundry pile one more shot. So when I was about to throw some clothes into the washer, I found my keys in the pocket of the sweater I was wearing the night before. Go figure. So the moral of all that chaos is…don’t throw your keys in the laundry pile!!

Moving on…

Monday I had dinner at this new person in my life, whom I can proudly say is now my boyfriend. He’s an amazing cook. One evening he made me deer steak, salad, fiddler heads, and a double baked potato. Another evening he made me a very cheesy omelette. and another evening we had pasta.

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Anyways…Monday! That was Victoria Day here in Canada. So we planned to go see the fireworks at the Fanshawe Conservation Area. We were a bit late, but the walk there and back was amazing. We seen the fireworks from a distance, seen fireworks along our walk through the countryside, outskirts of London. We shared ghost stories. And when there was some kind of animal in the bush, he kept me safe. He scared it off, whatever it was. Our walk gave us plenty of time to talk and learn about each-other. It was awesome. Near the end of it, we lied down by the Thames River and gazed at the stars. It was an awesome night, and I look forward to more hikes and adventures with him.

Tuesday… there was no Leads appointment this week. That is next week.

I went to the New School of Colour, and guess what?!! I finished my oil painting!! So yes, my art will be in Up with Art this year. Just when I thought otherwise. Things have a funny way of working out, don’t they? But I guess my name was already on the list as a confirmed artist, so I could have submitted an old piece, and still would have been in the show. However, when it comes to big exhibitions like Up with Art, or the Twitter Art Exhibit, I would much rather submit something new. So yaaaay! It’s in! Up with Art, June 20th, 2015. 6pm – 11pm at The Palace Theatre!! Tickets are $40 in advance, or $50 at the door!! And as our Fearless Leader, of the New School of Colour, would say; “Be there! Or be square!” Haha! http://www.upwithart.ca

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Anyways, this week was the last session of the New School of Colour for awhile. Our facilitator is going on vacation. So to all the artists, volunteers, and the facilitator, enjoy your break! See ya June 9th!

As for regarding all my babble about volunteers last week. A fellow artist, and former facilitator gave me an idea, and that was to co-facilitate the New School of Colour with her during the summer. During the months of July and August. Since she’ll be working, she suggested alternating between her and I. That sounds like a fabulous idea!! Anyways, she said she’d speak to the executive director of The Ark, and the facilitator of the New School of Colour. Hmm…maybe it is time for Pooks to step up so to speak. We shall see…

Within the week somewhere, a friend and I had dinner at our other friends apartment. He made us garlic and ham fettuccine alfredo. It was delish. And afterwards, of coarse, we had a couple games of dice. I am in fact the Dice Queen ya know? Haha! Just kidding. I think we all won a game each that night.

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Wednesday was my sons 10th birthday. I cannot believe it’s been 10 years. No matter what, I am one very proud mama. So yeah, I hope he had an awesome birthday!

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Thursday, I got to meet a couple of my man’s friends. They were funny. Before we sat down, chilled and had a couple beers, my man surprised me with a bouquet of white roses. I was just so in awe that he thought of me while we were apart.  Anyways, while the men talked and joked around, I just giggled. They were funny together. After they left, it was dinner and movie….and some adult explicit content that I’ll keep private. Haha! But yeah, Thursday we agreed to officially be a couple in a relationship. I really like him. He really likes me, and yeah. I actually have a boyfriend. 🙂 I guess he’s had a secret crush on my since a friend of ours daughters first birthday. Thanks to that friend, and her daughter, otherwise we would have never met, and wouldn’t have kept crossing each-others paths. I mean, there was that birthday…then I’d run into him at Sunfest, then we met at Tim Hortons…then the LTC bus ( which was when I gave him my number and things kind of went forward from then on).

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I couldn’t be happier. He truly is amazing. We have a similar taste in music. He plays bass. He can cook. He can grow plants. He can build houses. He even used to draw. He’s so talented in various areas. But I think what really drew us together was our love of being out in nature, and hiking. He’s adventurous and wild. He’s a family man. He comes from a huge family. I love the way he talks about his mother. All good things. She sounds like a wonderful woman.

Anyways, we have future plans to hike some trails, possibly go fishing, going to a baseball game, etc etc. He even plans to attend Up with Art. That is so awesome that he is going to be there to support me.

So yeah, things are good. I’m enjoying life.

Today I handed in my painting at the Unity Project. So everything is all good for Up with Art. I even went shopping for my sons birthday gift, as I will be seeing my children again tomorrow.

Anyways, I think that is all I will write today. Thank you for reading! – Pooks

“I have found that if you love life, life will love you back.”- Arthur Rubinstein

The Fabulous Life

Once again, a day behind. I guess there is no more schedule. Just post when I can post. My social life has definitely been altering things.

Anyways, recap…

My visit with the kids last Friday was good. It was very hot out that day. So yeah, we were drinking lots of juice. We tried to do the park-hopping thing we do, but my son and daughter couldn’t come to an agreement on what to play, and they kept changing the rules…it got really confusing. So yeah, after awhile this mama was like, let’s just go for a walk. And we did, and we had some laughs along the way. That was nice.

I gave my daughter her birthday present, which was 2 small Beanie Boos to add to her collection. I had originally got her the unicorn, and a penguin. But since she already had a penguin, we went back to the store to return and trade for a Beanie Boo she doesn’t have yet, the monkey. I think she has 7 Beanie Boos in total now. Perfect! Considering she just turned 7 years old.

I got a home-made gift from my son for Mother’s Day. I rarely get things home-made, or any art from him, so that just makes the gift he made me that much more special. I love it!

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On Tuesday, I went to Leads, and found out that the voice mail I failed to check was actually my worker calling to reschedule. Well la dee da! So there was no Leads appointment this past week.

At the New School of Colour, I don’t know… Just feeling like I’m under a lot of unnecessary pressure when it comes to this upcoming show, Up with Art. Been thinking of backing right out, because there is no way my painting will be complete for the deadline. Which is Monday. Ya know? The whole reason we had Wednesday sessions was to give us artists more studio time, more time to work and prepare for this exhibition. However, the volunteers that get assigned to supervise these days are not committed, and often move onto other things. So us artists get kinda teased with an extra day like a yo-yo. Rather than assigning a regular artist to supervise, say someone that has been going to the program for years, no. For some reason we aren’t trusted, and the facilitator of NSOC and the Executive Director of the Ark seek outside help instead. Doesn’t make any sense to me. The people they hire often don’t stick around.

So yeah, now our Wednesdays are cancelled and are no longer. Even though there is an artist, that is listed as an Ark volunteer that would be more than willing to run the Wednesday sessions. He has the time to do it.  So yeah, I don’t get it.

Obviously the head facilitator of the art program can’t do it, because he runs the same program for the youth in other parts of the city. That’s cool, but…I thought that the whole purpose of Wednesday evening art sessions was to prepare for this show, but just before it, the carpet kinda gets swiped right beneath us. Go figure. Yeah, our last volunteer got a job. Understandable. But that doesn’t explain why an artist from the program isn’t qualified to step up and facilitate in their place. Especially a veteran artist of the program that knows the routine, and how things are done.

So in a way, I feel like I kinda got screwed over. My painting isn’t going to be complete if the due date is this coming Monday. That would mean all pieces would have had to be completed last Tuesday. But even our Tuesdays are being cut short because our facilitator has other priorities. Our art sessions have been closing down early lately on Tuesdays. So there really isn’t much time to do shit.

Hence, why I currently doubt my involvement with Up with Art this year.

I am not the only artist that feels this way. Others are angry, upset, frustrated, so on and so forth. There is a lack of trust, there is a lack of organization, and yeah, things just get overwhelming and stressful for the artists. Not good!

So yeah, maybe I won’t be in Up with Art this year, maybe next year. That gives me a whole year to work on something, and maybe I’ll just work on whatever that will be at home. It may not be an oil painting, but whatever medium I have available at home.

So yeah, that is that.

Besides that pickle. I have been more social lately. Hanging out with friends. Playing dice, playing Cards Against Humanity, listen to rock and metal music, drinking coffee, eating muffins, cake, pie and ice cream… Haha! Yeah, my friends like to feed to me, and I find lately earlier in the day I have to squeeze time in to exercise. At least try to keep the weight down. I can’t really afford a new wardrobe. Not on my budget.

Newho, we hang out a lot. Those are muh peeps! Muh best buds.

Umm… I met up with a friend downtown, and we went East to pick up her new glasses. She took me out for lunch and we had subs. I’m grateful for that. No idea when I can pay her back  the favor. Not only that, but awhile back she even got me sandals. I may have mentioned that before or not. I can’t remember. So yeah, it’s sweet that she thinks of me. I hope that I can be as generous to her as she’s been with me someday. I don’t know. Just randomly surprise her as she does with me.

What else? I recently caught up with an acquaintance I met at a friends daughters 1st birthday party years ago. The last time I saw him was when we met up for coffee once at Tim Hortons a year or two ago. Newho, I ran into him briefly on the bus. I was in a hurry. I believe that was on Tuesday, just before the New School of Colour. I caught the bus to take me over the bridge, so yeah, our convo was very short.Haha!  I did however, write my number on his hand, before rushing off the bus, and through text messaging, we planned to meet up at Tim Hortons on Thursday evening.

That turned into an awesome evening/ night. We didn’t stick around Tim Hortons very long. We went to his place, and hung out there. We talked. Although it was funny and kinda cute how many times he got tongue tied.””Bleh! I can’t talk!” Haha!  I guess he’s normally social, and talking isn’t normally a problem. So yeah, that was flattering and funny. I made a new friend named Molly, his pet dog. He took me out for dinner, and we went to the Palasad. After that we went for a walk. When we returned to his place we watched The Wolverine, and I crashed on the couch. It was an early morning the next day, because he had to go to work. He’s a carpenter, builds houses. So yeah, up before sunrise. Surprisingly, being awake  that early wasn’t as rough as expected. He had our coffees ready and waiting. Yaaay!! Shortly after, we took Molly  for a walk. She’s so cute! Just a little white shiatsu, a rescued pet. So that is admirable. Her owner, however, is becoming a good friend. Maybe more. I don’t know. Time will tell. It was a good night regardless. We plan to meet up again on Monday for the fireworks at the Fanshawe Conservation Area. I’ve never been there so that should be fun.

Back in the day, I used to be iffy about him because he was quite the partier. And well… I’m over that phase. There is the very very odd time I’ll drink alcohol. However, since the last time I saw him, it seems like he has mellowed out a bit. AND he no longer owns 2 giant pythons. I remember being a bit concerned about that.

Newho, yeah, suddenly I’m talking about a guy. Not necessarily all mushy. But still. A guy. Hmm…A new person in my life. How can that not be exciting?

Anyways, today I was dying my hair. May have to redo it because I missed spots. Not surprising because my hair is so damn thick. I think next time I’ll take my buddy’s advice and have another person help me out with that, rather than doing it myself. I can’t see what the heck I’m doing when it comes to the back of my head. And apparently the longer my hair gets, the more difficult it is to dye my hair evenly on my own. I recall dying my hair, with much shorter hair, being so much easier. Anyways, it’s just a darker shade of brown.

Newho, it’s 3am. I should sleep. I got to pick my kids up in 6-7 hours or so. So yeah, busy busy. Until next time, I hope you enjoyed the read of my fabulous life! – Pooks

“There’s always a good lesson in meeting new people, its enlarging your circle of friends. And though there are times you don’t match with their likes, there are some whom you just blend well.” – Solita

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Past the Test

Maybe I should just make Thursday my new blog day…

Anyways, there was something I forgot to mention in the last post, about how I was catching some kind of cold or flu, but then a friend gave me garlic, and yeah, that fixed me right up within 2 days. I took his advice about dicing it up and drinking it with water, but then I remembered how he said something about how rapid things get into the blood stream when placed under the tongue. So that’s what I did, I took a nice chunk of it and placed it under my tongue, and holy hell was that hot!! Haha! You can tell garlic is related to the onion.

Newho, onto other things. Umm.. I patched things up with someone I used to hang out with quite regularly 3 years ago. We started talking and mingling again at the New School of Colour, and afterward we went for a long walk where we were able to say what we needed to say, and yeah, the past is behind us. I think we both came to a better understanding of each-other.  It is nice to have a friend that enjoys walking, and loves coffee as much I do. Not to mention, after all this time that has past, we can still relate to each-other. So yeah, grateful for forgiveness, and friendship.

Last weekend my children were over for a visit. I think were always up to something. We could be playing doctor, and I’m taped to the floor… or my daughter and I or painting and trading our art… Thank my son for suggesting to watch Big Hero 6, that was a cute movie. We missed our movie hour in the evening, so instead we had Breakfast and a Movie. I see them again this coming Friday!…Hopefully it won’t be too cold out.

"I painted this for my daughter, and she proudly hung it up in her room. The painting she gave me is in mine. " - Pooks

“I painted this for my daughter, and she proudly hung it up in her room. The painting she gave me is in mine. ” – Pooks

On Tuesday I slept in, and missed my Leads appointment. Darn it! My alarm was set, it did go off, I just slept right through it. I’ve been really exhausted lately, and I think it has something to do with my diet. Not enough vegetables. I’m like Popeye and his spinach, except he doesn’t slow down like a dying battery like I do when he goes without. Worst kind of exhaustion ever, not even coffee will suffice.

Anyways, my appointment has been re-booked to next week. Dust myself off, try to eat better, and try again. Back to discovering my strengths and abilities.

At the New School of Colour I was pulled aside to a meeting, where I and another New School of Colour member were given the torch, so to speak, regarding the New School of Colours social media sites and official website. So yesh. It’s official. Pooks is one of the New School of Colours social media guru’s. If you noticed any new tweets from the New School of Colour, that was me! I got straight to work. The official site uses Weebly, a web builder I am already familiar with. That’s what I use for my own site. Although I believe building it won’t be as quick as my own was, because it’ll require interaction with other members so that everyone is happy with it. Looks like I’ll need to step outside of my comfort zone a little bit. But whatever, I’m happy some other skills of mine can be put to use. I have been doing this social media stuff for awhile.

Before I forget, I did show up with make up and paint on my face, and congrats to the New School of Colour and The Ark. They past my test. Everyone treated me no differently, as well as the people that attend, volunteers, and staff. There was no bias or discrimination. They spoke to me like there wasn’t even paint on my face. Thanks for reassuring me that it is a safe space for all.

All Rights Reserved. All Photos Property of Pauline King Shannon (Pooks) ©

All Rights Reserved. All Photos Property of Pauline King Shannon (Pooks) ©

I submitted my last completed oil painting into the New School of Colours next art exhibition. Which will be in the lobby of the Palace Theatre, in addition to the Ark Aid Street Mission’s play “The Living Last Supper.” That will be taking place this Friday and Saturday. p.s. It was a pleasant surprise to see that the play got into the London Free Press. Congrats to The Ark, and everyone involved with “The Living Last Supper.”

On Wednesday there was a group photo at the New School of Colour being taken, and I tried to hide in the back, but I got busted. The photographer was like; where’s Pooks? I guess I was being humble, a little modest. Trying to shed some light on the other artists. I don’t really need the spotlight, I am more than capable of drawing attention to myself when I want to.

Anyways, later on that evening a new member ( She’s been attending for about a month) to the New School of Colour was preparing to get ready to paint with a younger artist. They decided to do some finger painting, so I dared this newcomer to dive in, get messy. The result was amazing. They both had fun, their smiles and giggles lit up the room. That is the New School of Colour. That energy that took place.

I found out later that I had inspired this artist to step outside of her comfort zone. That’s cool. I thought I was just being playful with the dare. But inspiring? Cool. Just trying to share what I know is loads of fun, Art with kids. I knew she would have a blast if she took on my dare. 😉

“I taught and also learned that letting go, being brave and messy is my new idea of perfection!!!”

– Francesca

I still need to do my income taxes. Unsure what I need to bring. But I’m pretty sure I can get it all done at the Crouch Library. I was considering about going to The Ark, but the guy that does them there has been under the weather lately. So yeah, probably best to try else where.

I did get an e-mail from The Arts Project regarding Floater hours, but unfortunately they collide with my visiting hours with my children. So I will have to pass. However, the Ting Comic and Graphics Festival is coming up, and I look forward to checking that out at The Arts Project. Comic art fan here!

Newho, that is all I’m gonna write for now. Hope you enjoyed the update. It feels like a week just flew by. Onto experiencing more life. Thanks for reading! – Pooks

“A life lived without forgiveness is a prison.”- William Arthur Ward

The Rare Form

Okay. I know I usually post something Tuesdays or Wednesdays, but since my schedule has changed, I was kinda tired afterward.

New School of Colour has moved to Tuesday and Wednesdays, 5-8:30pm at The Ark. My Leads appointments are Tuesday mornings at 11am. So my Mid- week gets pretty busy.

Anyways, I got my hot chocolate by my side, I don’t feel like crashing and crawling back into bed. I’m good to go, on with the blog!

I guess I’ll start with the first thing that comes to mind, and it’s something that happened during the evening yesterday. I was helping a kid mix their paints, they were so fascinated watching the colours change right before their eyes. It was cute. Since I didn’t have anything to stir with at that moment, I just stirred the paint with my finger and put the excess paint on my face. I gave myself a cat nose, and whiskers with grey paint. Yes, we made grey.

Anyways, I don’t really see paint on my face as a problem. But apparently others do. For instance, after the art session, this freakin guy was too embarrassed to be seen walking with me in public because I still had the paint on my face. So he said to take a ride with someone else, this other guy couldn’t care what I have painted on my face. I could have the Blackhawks NHL logo painted on my face, and he’d still think I was cute. Really? Can you be anymore freakin insulting? I mean the Blackhawks NHL logo is an illustration of a natives face. Not only that, but paint on my face doesn’t change who I am, I’m still the same person beneath the paint. Yet I receive this shit load of bias negative bullshit for it. I cannot believe I dated this guy temporarily, at least until I smeared whipped cream all over my lips like lipstick back in the day. Yeah, clearly, that was too embarrassing. Heaven forbid what others will think! I honestly couldn’t give a shit.

That kinda automatically makes me want to retaliate, and deliver a message in my own way. Like show up to the next New School of Colour art session with my face painted deliberately to see who else will treat me differently for something so small. I mean the New School of Colour is supposed to be a safe space for numerous reasons, but I’m gonna focus on the social barriers aspect and really put that to the test. Are all people really accepted? Even the ones that practice this rare form to become the art?

At this very moment, I can relate to Asia Ray, from the Venice Beach Freakshow when she posted on FB saying; “Fuck pretty.” Us women are expected to look pretty, be dolled up, and be silent in this conservative world. Be “ladies”. Well… I’m sorry, but there is a side to me that is not all that. It’s creative, spontaneous, adventurous, curious ( I will ask questions), obnoxious (sometimes), and maybe even innovative! I can come up with ideas quite rapidly.  I have this need to explore and discover. Some people call that wild. It’s a side of me I refuse to let this world tame.

So if this freakin guy can’t accept me with a little paint on my face, well then he doesn’t accept all of me. I am one of those artists that tries to become the art. Heck, a couple weeks ago, I got an e-mail from someone that has admired what I have accomplished over these last few years and said; “I am truly inspired and impressed by the way you have turned your tragedy into a work of art that is your life.I guess I do create art, live art, breathe art, become the art.

Anyways, onto other things. I had a good visit with my children, thanks to the person who helped me out this month, otherwise my visits wouldn’t have been possible. Without their help, I would have been broke and forced to cancel.

As usual, we had a good weekend. I imagine as the weather gets nicer, we will be getting outdoors more often. Although this weekend we were indoors. Since I finally hooked up my DVD player after all these years, we’ve been going through DVD’s seeing which ones work, and which ones are garbage. Although I think the ones that are garbage can be reused for one of the little art projects I do with my daughter. My son usually plays games on the computer, and if he wants to join in with my daughter and I and play, that’s cool. I understand he’s getting older, and perhaps playing with stuffies is not his forte. But he will join us for a game of tag, or hide n’ seek, or even a snow ball fight at the bus stop. More active things, which I’m sure there will be more of soon enough, without the snow.

Speaking of the snowball fight at the bus stop, that was on our way back to Merrymount, my daughter noticed her glove was missing. She got so upset over it. She feared her fathers reaction over this one little article of clothing. She kinda panicked. We did look around, but didn’t back track too far because our bus would pull up any minute. We didn’t find it. So I reassured her that I would find it on my way back home. That I will walk and backtrack to find it. And I did! After dropping them off at Merrymount, I walked back home, and found it on the way. So hopefully their father didn’t freak out over a measly mitt. Ya know? Spring is around the corner, soon she won’t be needing it. Not to mention it has holes in it, she’ll be due for a new pair anyways next winter.

This time around, I wasn’t as stressed over time. I swear I become no fun when I am worrying about something as ridiculous as time. My anxiety goes through the roof. I panic about punctuality. But yeah, I was a lot more relaxed, and so were my kids. They were kinda tuckered out actually, they both fell asleep on the bus, on the way to Merrymount. That rarely happens, normally it’s just my son that goes to sleep because he gets motion sickness. Kudos to momma. You did a good job. They had a good weekend.

I finished one oil painting and started another at the New School of Colour… I guess there will be an exhibit along side the play that will be going on at the Palace Theater. “The Living Last Supper”. It is a fundraiser for the Ark Aid Street Mission, it takes place March 27th & 28th. I heard that the New School of Colours art will be on display in the lobby. So that’s pretty cool. Check it out, it will be the New School’s Fearless Leader’s acting debut. Jeremy Jeresky will be acting as Judas. The play is kinda bringing the famous painting by Leonardo DaVinci, “The Last Supper”, to life. Art inspiring art, that’s cool.

Speaking of exhibitions, last Tuesday I was so excited to see that the piece I submitted into the Twitter Art Exhibit was up on the wall in Moss, Norway. Thank you David Sandum for creating the Twitter Art Exhibit. This is my second time participating. This year, all the proceeds go to Home Start, which is a non profit organization that helps families in need. I am very proud to be a part of this exhibit, and to be doing my small part in helping others out there by donating my art to fund-raise.

Photo credit goes to David Sandum. Art by Pooks

Photo credit goes to David Sandum.

During my Leads appointment this week we were finding out about my strengths and abilities. We listed 8 major values. I’m not sure I can remember them all, but some were to help society, to help others, creativity, and I forget the rest. My thoughts kinda trailed there and got me thinking that maybe I’d make a good fundraiser. I enjoy participating, would I enjoy being behind the scenes? And where does one find a job as a fundraiser? Hmm.. that too is a possibility.

Speaking of jobs, I didn’t get the job at the Build- A- Bear Workshop. But I kinda laughed that off, saying it’s their loss, they just lost a creative genius. Haha! It was an optimistic way of looking at rejection.

Anyways, I think I babbled on long enough. I’m sure there’s some things I’m forgetting, that perhaps can be put into another post if and when I feel like it. Once again, thank you for reading! – Pooks

“When people rely on surface appearances and false racial stereotypes, rather than in-depth knowledge of others at the level of the heart, mind and spirit, their ability to assess and understand people accurately is compromised.”

– James A. Forbes